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In my office, I have a sign that says "dare to be remarkable" - in many ways, that was George Campbell. When he walked back into my daughter's life 346 days ago [from October 2, 2005], there was an immediate impact. Sandi was in love and with a man we - her father and stepmother, her brother, her stepfather, her children and I - knew to be exceptional.
This was a man who was large in form, but not
as large as his loving heart; I
felt an immediate connection to George - I do not know the karmic
ties that made it imperative for me to help him in any way I could,
but I know absolutely that it was there and that helping him was one
of the best things I could do with my life. I loved him immediately
and was greatly honoured when he would call me, "Mother" in his
gentle voice. George was an amazing healer. He was an empath able to understand from the body just what kind and intensity of energy it needed where in order to be cleared and raised to its most comfortable and quietly energized state. He was the facilitator and channel for what we called Aquarian Massage, an intuitive healing practice uniquely personal to George. He had no karmic path work to rebalance; he was here simply to transmit healing and love to anyone who crossed his path. A man of deep spirituality, George developed his own personal understanding of the Divine and its workings in his life. Although he was aware of The Power and The Presence as a living force, his spiritual experiences were his alone - unique, loving, visionary and precious to him. Shortly after I met George, he told me of his ability to see white light auras around certain people - those he had come to understand were good people enveloped in Pure Light. "Sandi," he said, "and the boys have very strong white lights." George had been clearly attuned to his Higher Guidance. When he was twelve, he had a vision of a light-haired woman who would love him so much that nothing else would compare to it. Ever since then, he had been watching and waiting for her to appear in his life; he believed completely that Sandi was the incarnation of that vision. George was a man of simple wants: for the rest of his life, he wanted to share in marriage a deep and rich love with a woman of like heart and mind; for the rest of his life, he wanted to have children - including one of his own - to play with and guide, encourage and support in creating their dreams; for the rest of his life, he wanted to engage in work that he loved in an environment of laughter and friends. I am glad I had the chance to tell him and Sandi that I loved them both; I wish I could hold them together and tell them again. Three hundred and forty-six days after he came into our lives, at the far-too-early age of 35 years, George was taken from us through the agency of a care-less speeding driver. Our understanding is that he passed from life so quickly that he did not suffer. Beyond that we do not understand yet why this good, kind man who had everything wonder-full to enjoy in his life had to leave. It has been suggested to me that perhaps God needed George more with Him than we needed him here - if that is the case, then God's need must have been enormously great indeed. I know that George is not finished with us, although we may have to learn how to hear him somewhat differently. The first message I had from him [after his passing] was to let his precious Sandi and their boys know... I will always love you.
This is the story of that first message ... Finally, I decided to act on my intuition and on the way over to my daughter’s home, I arranged for the red roses with one white one to be sent to her, writing on a card: “I will always love you.” No signature. The moment I finished writing, I heard deep within me, in George’s voice: “Thank you, Mother.” At that moment too, I was flooded with such a feeling of love and great gratitude I almost felt I could not contain it; it may seem strange that such an unhappy occasion could also be an occasion of happiness, but I will never forget how glad I have been at this sign of continuing love and how grateful I am that I could help. Sandi and George met about nine years ago when she worked at an arcade called Wizard's Castle and George was a frequent patron. They enjoyed a flirtatious acquaintance but drifted away from each other before anything more serious could develop.
However, that was not quite the beginning of
their story...
All three of Sandi's sons looked on George as
a father whom they loved and respected; played with; felt safe and
cared for and cared about... and he too considered them his sons.
"George Campbell was a very nice man but I
didn't get to know him very well. What I did know what he was very
kind, helpful, and fun to be with. He was Donald, Bob, Toby and
Crystal's brother. He also was the father of three young boys named
Jordan, Travis and myself [Cody]. George and my mom were going to
get married. George was always there if somebody needed him. Thirteen-year-old Jordan - called Jay - touched many hearts with the following tribute to "Georgie": I know by blood I wasn’t your son or daughter, but I love you just the same. I know by blood you weren’t my father, but I love you just the same. You touched my life in such a way, like a father day by day. I wished so hard for you to stay so we had much more time to play. You treated me with respect and love; I always knew where I stood. Now you soar high above and I would turn back time if I could. I know by blood I wasn’t your son or daughter, but I love you just the same. I know by blood you weren’t my father, but I love you just the same. The time we shared, the things we would do; I always knew you cared for me and loved my Mommy too. You brought so much happiness into my life through your words and your actions. I wanted my Mommy to be your wife, then my life would be filled to perfection.
I know by blood I
wasn’t your son or daughter, but I love you just the same.
I love you, Daddy! Almost 9-year-old
Travis drew a computer designed picture to be included in George's
casket as one last gift he could give the man he loved as his Daddy.
First, Travis drew an abstract of many circles and ovals of pale blue and purple; it was noticeable that many of these forms were incomplete. I felt he was expressing the healing energy Geo emanated but also his [Travis's] own feelings that something was unfinished. "No," he said, "that's not quite right." Then he created a picture of overlapping, fiery red triangles - all sharp points - some of them even dagger-like in their pointed-ness, but that picture did not last long. It seemed to be present momentarily so Travis could let go of some of his intense, even angry feelings.
I wish to express my deepest gratitude to those colleagues, associates and friends who have and continue to offer their support and assistance to my family and me as we travel through the Valley of the Shadow that the loss of George has created in our lives. While we do understand that he and his beautiful Spirit are not lost to us except in the physical, there are hours and days when that is where we are, doing the best we can moment-by-moment. We have been gifted with the support and services of many generous healers and friends - without whom we would not have been in a position to carry on with any ease or grace. As we walk this path torn between the logic of the Mind and the passion of the Heart, we know with your continued understanding and encouragement, we will come to the Place of Choice and, in time, be able to make the Choice for Healing and for Peace. Until we are able to stand there, once again whole and complete, we appreciate your patience and your love along the way. Update - On August 24, 2006 - Sandi's birthday - the driver who killed George was sentenced to 15 days incarceration to be served on weekends, 90 days suspension of his license and 9 months probation.
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